ok, so right now it feels like my world is fucked and upside down, i dont know what the hell i was thinking, i have an amazing boyfriend that loves me to bits, and i just take advantage of the poor guy when he tries his best, just because i feel like i'm getting torn apart bit by bit. i'm completely in love with him, i never thought that i would find this kind of love especially at this age, and such an amazing guy, like a complete mc dreamy. and i might have fucked it all up just cause i was having a shit day, i dumpd him today. my lover, my best friend, my soul mate, my other half, thee  one i was gonna die with as old people lying in eachothers arms looking into eachothers eyes. fuck im dumb, so i gave him the choice wether he wants to take me back or not, and i fucking dont deserve him. but i so wish i could have my baby back, i love him. i'm waiting for him to come online to tell me what he's decided.......so we'll see what choice he makes......